Official Start Time: 10:10 p.m.
Date: 12/8/08
Official End Time: 11:00 p.m.
It seems like the brick walls in my life just don't know how to take a hint. They have this bad habit of getting in my way when I really don't need them to be there. I know that it's really up to me to make the decision, to adapt to the changes and to learn how to avoid these monsters, but I'm getting to the point where I'd rather trudge it through than admit defeat and allow the brick walls to hold me back. This isn't the first time I've had an unwelcome visit and I swear that its gonna be the last for a long time.
Maybe I should give you some more on the background information. I started my day not feeling to well. (A note for the future if I feel like that in the future should be reverting to insulin shots or changing the pump site completely) I didn't have much time today to either so I went with my gut (stupid mistake) and went to school. What made today so important was the visitors we would be having come to Crosby. VP Wang, Professor Chen, and Du Hong would be visiting the school: having lunch and getting a taste of Crosby and some of the work we're doing.
I knew things would get worse but it wasn't anything that led to the hospital when you look at some of other visits my brick walls have made. I took the fall and went to the nurse where I knew my blood sugar was high and the ketones to match. I took a bolus but obviously the pump was having no affect seeing as I had already given myself a few bolus prior to coming to the nurse. I had some insulin in the school and got to take a shot for 25 units. It took me about an hour but I finally did throw up and made my way out of the school with my head down and a level of disgust to match.
I had worked so hard these last couple of months on the site and the brick walls that I've had to overcome were nothing when it comes to enjoying the fruit of my labor. As I walked up the hill, towards the car I stood and I said to myself that enough was enough. I gave my mom my books and made my move toward Palidino's room and the guest that were visiting today. From that point forward I was fortunate to have the visitors see our Chemistry Class, ISSP and the Head of the Language Department: Lucia Perugini.
It was a great experience and a bit of a shame we had to rush them out so quickly. It was great having them meet our classmates, experience the typical Crosby student, and almost get run over as we pasted from class to class. All's well that ends well. As I got home I took more insulin, changed my pump and stood in the face of the brick and told it that today wasn't the day. (figuratively speaking of course, I'm not crazy, just trying to make a point)
I'll be going to school tomorrow and continue on with my day like I should. I've notice that looking back, missing a day, and trying to prevent change only holds you back from doing the things you really care about. You need to work with the flow of life, not against it. Being clever also helps. The karma will take care of itself and maybe one day we can learn how to be proactive and enjoy the fruit of our labor.
Sincerely, Hector Guzman
Date: 12/8/08
Official End Time: 11:00 p.m.
It seems like the brick walls in my life just don't know how to take a hint. They have this bad habit of getting in my way when I really don't need them to be there. I know that it's really up to me to make the decision, to adapt to the changes and to learn how to avoid these monsters, but I'm getting to the point where I'd rather trudge it through than admit defeat and allow the brick walls to hold me back. This isn't the first time I've had an unwelcome visit and I swear that its gonna be the last for a long time.
Maybe I should give you some more on the background information. I started my day not feeling to well. (A note for the future if I feel like that in the future should be reverting to insulin shots or changing the pump site completely) I didn't have much time today to either so I went with my gut (stupid mistake) and went to school. What made today so important was the visitors we would be having come to Crosby. VP Wang, Professor Chen, and Du Hong would be visiting the school: having lunch and getting a taste of Crosby and some of the work we're doing.
I knew things would get worse but it wasn't anything that led to the hospital when you look at some of other visits my brick walls have made. I took the fall and went to the nurse where I knew my blood sugar was high and the ketones to match. I took a bolus but obviously the pump was having no affect seeing as I had already given myself a few bolus prior to coming to the nurse. I had some insulin in the school and got to take a shot for 25 units. It took me about an hour but I finally did throw up and made my way out of the school with my head down and a level of disgust to match.
I had worked so hard these last couple of months on the site and the brick walls that I've had to overcome were nothing when it comes to enjoying the fruit of my labor. As I walked up the hill, towards the car I stood and I said to myself that enough was enough. I gave my mom my books and made my move toward Palidino's room and the guest that were visiting today. From that point forward I was fortunate to have the visitors see our Chemistry Class, ISSP and the Head of the Language Department: Lucia Perugini.
It was a great experience and a bit of a shame we had to rush them out so quickly. It was great having them meet our classmates, experience the typical Crosby student, and almost get run over as we pasted from class to class. All's well that ends well. As I got home I took more insulin, changed my pump and stood in the face of the brick and told it that today wasn't the day. (figuratively speaking of course, I'm not crazy, just trying to make a point)
I'll be going to school tomorrow and continue on with my day like I should. I've notice that looking back, missing a day, and trying to prevent change only holds you back from doing the things you really care about. You need to work with the flow of life, not against it. Being clever also helps. The karma will take care of itself and maybe one day we can learn how to be proactive and enjoy the fruit of our labor.
Sincerely, Hector Guzman
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