Progress Report for March

Official Start Time: 4:00 a.m.
Date: 3/31/09
Official End Time: 4:30 a.m.

It's the end of the month and it's seem like it's the end of alot of things. I'll try to keep it simple but words make it hard to express the mixed feelings I have when it comes to the site and the future that lays ahead.

#1. YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHAT'S COMING NEXT
I've said it in the past and I'll say it again, you'll never know what lays ahead in the future to come.
  • What you're doing today might not be what you're doing a year from now.
  • The experience you gain from these projects are the greatest gifts you can ever get.
  • Being open minded and patient will be the greatest virtues you will ever gain through these experiences; cherish them.
#2. BEING DEVIOUS NEVER WORKS
Something that I've learned through this experience is that being devious never works.
  • You can never force anyone to do anything they don't want to do.
  • Making friends for no obliterate reason doesn't help
  • Selling your soul to the devil happens more than once when you're desperate; try not to make a fool of yourself.
#3. SEEING THE BIG PICTURE ISN'T EASY
It's hard to accept the truth and a lot of times it means seeing the big picture
  • Sometimes, it might be wise to admit when things aren't working out
  • It's better to be honest to yourself instead of lying to those around you
  • Being earnest is the real road to success; once you find it you're destined for greatness
FINAL SUMMATION

So, my goal for March 31. 2008 was to have 1,000 members on the Ningxia Dragon Student Ambassador website; I got 672. It was a valiant effort but I kind of saw the mountain I was climbing against and knew from the beginning that gaining 373 members was basically impossible. I never really gave up but I will admit that after a while I stopped giving it my all. I started to see the bigger picture and realized that reaching that goal shouldn't be my goal. My goal should be to provide a better service to the members that are already here and not worry about all the ones that aren't here.

The future that lays ahead is bright with opportunity and I hope to take every chance I have to take advantage of these opportunities and give back so that others can have the same chance I did. I have therefore decided to start my own social network: Curriculum Designers, Inc. In no way do I plan to leave the site or betray everything it has taught me. I just simply want a bigger breeding ground where I can publish a lot of the things I have learned. Wish me luck ;)

May the Ningxia Dragon Student Ambassador website prosper and grow; fulfilling the dreams and aspirations of its teams, members, and guardians who wish to provide opportunities for students everywhere in a time that needs shelter and care.

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

A Break From The Brain Crack

Official Start Time: 3:30 a.m.
Date: 3/30/09
Official End Time: 4:00 a.m.

I thought it might be wise to limit the amount of brain crack I leak because 1, it started to hurt and 2 because I wanted to review some of the ideas I talked about and why.

So, I hope my descriptions made some sense because I really don't think they did. They are brain crack, but I wish they had more substance and structure so that people/me wouldn't keep asking questions like what about this or would this make sense if you consider this or this or this.

Some of the ideas I shared really were sweet and I hope that at some point in my lifetime, we can see them happen. The idea of free media wherever you go under a CC license was probably the best and one of my more mature ideas. I realized that the brain crack can be really random and fun in a lot of ways. However, only those ideas that actually go through are worth anything which is a bummer. Sharing the ideas does supply a certain level of satisfaction knowing that your idea has been archived for you and others to look at and reflect upon in the future.

Overall, braincrack isn't just inventions but also reforms that make life harder, better, faster, and stronger. I'm sure this won't be the first time I share such ideas/beliefs and I know things can only get better from here. Brain Crack Forever!

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Brain Crack #4 ~ Media Wherever You Go

Official Start Time: 3:00 a.m.
Date: 3/29/09
Official End Time: 3:30 a.m.

It always kills me when I can't find the right image, song, or video when I'm doing a blog, a project, etc etc. In my pits of frustration I often find myself discouraged and either give up on the mission completely, waste hours searching and then accepting what I found in the very beginning, or get distracted and end up wasting more time and effort then I originally intended.

It would be awesome if I there all the media in the world: movies, pictures, web pages, etc could be available to users all over the web for free! It sounds crazy, but I don't understand why not. Imagine the work we could produce if we were able to see the full picture. We would be wiser, faster, and better informed of the world around us. If anything, Web 2.0 has taught us that when we share, we learn and we grow in only positive directions. Many worry about copyright infringement but I believe that a CC license will soon come/should be put on all forms of media.

The idea reminds me of a larger, more refined version of Google that makes information easy for all users. I think we're getting close to this stage but I fear our pride and our greed will inhibit us from every sniffing this brain crack.

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Brain Crack #3 ~ Origami/Lego dispenser

Official Start Time: 3:00 a.m.
Date; 3/28/09
Official End Time: 3:30 a.m.

A few blog post ago, I talked about Origami and how when I was in middle school I used to do it all the time. Like in class, late at night, etc etc.

Being the creative, OCD, obsessive child I am, I got the crazy idea of a giant dispenser that would give you origami paper. I always seemed to run out of origami paper and when I got this ideas it was basically a giant origami paper dispenser that had a ready supply of origami paper of every kind.

The idea didn't really stop there as you can imagine I also shared a love for legos and a bunch of other stuff. The concept is still the same in which I would have a ready supply of legos whenever I needed it. The Lego one actually sounds better and better when I think about as I remember always running out of certain pieces and having to give up on that idea. (Don't be surprised if in the future you see me in Lego Land running around building stuff and stealing pieces)

In general, having a ready supply of anything would be pretty sweet but as a kid these were my biggest concerns. I wonder what other ideas I could come up with?

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Brain Crack #2 ~ Snow Be Gone Blowtorch

Official Start Time: 3:00 a.m.
Date: 3/27/09
Official End Time: 3:30 a.m.

Now I know the title might seem a little bizarre but I was like 7 years old when the idea came to mind and I think it might have been a good idea at the time.

So, in my hometown of Waterbury, CT we are often plagued with snow. A snow storm for us is like a hurricane for Florida; everyone starts acting crazy as they expect the worse buying as much food and supplies as possible.

Waiting for the school bus is probably the biggest pain when after it snows. It's freezing, slippery and just uncomfortable all together. An idea, at the moment hit me as I wondered how people could get ride of the snow in a jiffy. The idea was simple, a consumer blowtorch used simply for eliminating the snow.

Think about it, we lose school because of snow. People get into accidents because of snow. Snow doesn't help commuters in any way, but instead makes their life that much worse. A Snow be Gone blowtorch would melt the snow and make life easier for people. Sanitation workers could be equipped with tools like these and could make rounds around town to insure that there wasn't any snow in people's way the next day.

I think it's a good idea, but there are many details that I know consider might prevent the creation of such a tool.
  • It would scorch the ground!
  • It just isn't natural
  • It doesn't sound very safe
  • It isn't energy efficient
I guess there are still a few bugs to work out, but I believe tackling these issues means tackling some of the fundamental elements of society and the way we live; I don't know if have the answers to some of those dilemmas yet.

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Brain Crack #1 ~ Corner Store Infrastructure

Official Start Time: 2:30 a.m.
Date: 3/26/09
Official End Time: 3:00 a.m.

So my cousin works at a corner store and it can get pretty hectic between the people trying to steal stuff and the number of people trying to be served in such a small period of time.

The biggest thing is probably getting the beer. Like any "legal establishment" it's illegal to sell bear in Connecticut after 9:00 p.m. However, this isn't a Supermarket, but a Corner Store where business literally thrives off the malignant deeds of others. So basically after 9:00 p.m. you can imagine the traffic Corner Stores have and all the other crazy, illegal crap that goes on.

In between all the chaos, brain crack struck me, and I though how great would it be if there was an infrastructure behind a Corner Store. It doesn't even need to stop at a Corner Store, it could be applied to stores everywhere and what not. The idea is basically a computer database that keeps a precise archive of all the supplies in the store, their price, etc etc. The clerk would simply tell the computer what supplies he/she needs and he/she would never have to leave their post or send someone after things that consume time and put the workers and the establishment at risk by law.

The ideas seems nice but I guess it would take away the aesthetic taste of going to the store. Plus I would imagine there would be a be a zero tolerance policy when employees breaks the rule no matter how small the issue might be. I guess it was good while it lasted.

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

The Brain Crack Begins!

Official Start Time: 2:00 a.m.
Date: 3/25/09
Official End Time: 2:30 a.m.

Brain Crack is an idea I saw in a recent video which struck me as a well duh, I do that all the time and it might be smart to share those thoughts.







So if you aren't totally confused, brain crack is basically random ideas you get every now and again that you think would be awesome if they existed in real life. Random thoughts and ideas you wish were true because it would either be amazng or just helpful for your everyday life.

Over the next couple of blogs, I will be sharing some of my brain crack and I hope ya'll share some of yours.

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

In case you were wondering . . .

Official Start Time: 1:45 a.m.
Date: 3/24/09
Official End Time: 2:00 a.m.






In case you were wondering, you can visit my Photobucket for all these pictures and more!

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Heaven and Hell ~ Escher

Official Start Time: 2:25 a.m.
Date: 3/23/09
Official End Time: 2:30 a.m.


Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Drawing Hands ~ Escher

Official Start Time: 1:20 a.m.
Date: 3/22/09
Official End Time: 1:30 a.m.

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Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Did You Know?

Official Start Time: 12:45 a.m.
Date: 3/21/09
Official End Time: 1:00 a.m.






Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Meeting with Congressman John Larson

Official Start Time: 6:00 p.m.
Date: 3/20/09
Official End Time: 7:00 p.m.

Today was the epic day of our meeting with Congressman John Larson as me, Jay, and Steve hauled our way to Hartford and got ready to meet Congressman John Larson. So, to take you back, Steve got the chance to schedule a meeting with Congressman John Larson about the schools for peace initiative. The schools for peace initiative is about federal dollars being used for educational reform. Our goal today was to prove that New School Student Ambassadors embodies literally all the elements this initiative seeks. I can't really just say our goal since it wasn't just me, Jay and Steve but Jacey, Steven, Tori, Miguel, Angel, and countless other faces who came to show their support and share their stories about how New School Student Ambassadors and the programs we run embody all the elements this initiative seeks.

So as we're driving to Hartford, I find myself adrift in the conversation. Over the last couple of days, I was working hard to get people to talk about the issue and how the service we provide embodies these elements. It was tough, but I did get a couple of educators and students to reply but not as many as I wanted. So while we're riding in the car, I begin to reflect about the program and how it relates to the real world in terms of what would a potential investor say if we came to him with this proposition? What would he expect by investing into our program? Does education hold a price we are willing to pay? All questions that only triggered feelings and thoughts that I know are dangerous in the mind of a stubborn child.

I began to think about the Confucius hierarchy and how time and time again, we represent pawns in a giant game of chess. I remember thinking of the people that were going and was it right for them to be there? I thought of Alex and why he didn't come? I thought of the Newtown kids and why they came? And I thought about me, Jay, and Steve; why were we here? What was our purpose? Was our reasoning pure?

As you could imagine I wasn't the biggest talker on the car ride there and the question only continued to accumulate as we got closer to our destination. Little by little, I felt the questions started to answer themselves as we sat listening to the meeting and waiting for our turn to participate.

I began to think about our purpose and how it would fair against potential investors. In many ways, the timid soul would resist such daring moves as times are tough and people see education at the bottom of their list when it comes to government spending. The noble act of giving back to your community seems to slip away when we see money that could be in our pockets.

I began to think about the Confucius hierarchy and the roles we represent. Are me, Jay, and the other participants of previous cultural exchange programs just kids that resemble nothing more than young voices being active in their community or are we of value and do we have a purpose?

Finally, I began to think about the people who were there and what kind of role they played. I remember Steve being there and of course this is his company and his chance to make a difference. It wouldn't be a meeting without Steve. I remember a representative from the Board of Education being there in concerns to preparing Connecticut for the global economy. Her mission was to I guess validate what we're doing and not just make it seem like some crazy old guy with a bunch of kids asking for help. Additionally, I remember the students: Jay, Tori, Jacey, Steven, Miguel, Angel, and myself, being there and how our stories seemed to battle against each other.

At the meeting, Steve started by introducing the issue and talking about the community we have on the site and the service it provides. Steve also talked about 3 Cups of Tea and how the main characters gift of education was something we were trying to do through our cultural exchange programs. The conversation grew dry after a while as our audience wasn't immediately impressed with what we had to offer and really thought that it would be quicker to let us say what we had to say then argue as to why it wouldn't work out.

Sharing our stories really got weird as I became the glory child. I'm not sure who started first but I remember making notes in my head about all the big issues I wanted to mention. Steve basically called me a social entrepreneur who was in charge of the site and the content being shared. It was nice that I was finally being recognized for all the work I do, but it made me think as to why all the other participant were there. Jay for instance hasn't been on the site for months, and yet tries to portray himself as a noble who works countless hours giving back to the community. Jacey, Steven, and Tori are almost never on the site and I can't exactly blame them; they neither claim being on the site nor leaders as to what goes on on the site. Miguel and Angel are two old faces who aim to go back to China because I guess had a really good time the first time around so why not do it again. Feeling this way isn't easy for you know that saying these things or even feeling them make you seem like a horrible person. No one wants to hear the truth, especially those spewing it.

The meeting finally came to an end as we walked down to the lobby and said good bye as casually as we said hello. It was great seeing old friends and I really do wish we stay in touch more often. I however fear that China cannot be the only thing holding us together and its about time we grow up if we want our lives to move forward and on to bigger and better things. We need to realize (or maybe I need to realize) that we can't play this game forever and that we need to choose our own paths towards the future. Hopefully this path doesn't mean abandoning the things, people, and places we love.

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Hand with Reflecting Sphere

Official Start Time: 3:40 a.m.
Date: 3/19/09
Official End Time: 4:00 a.m.


Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Taking Education To New Levels

Official Start Time: 3:55 a.m.
Date: 3/18/09
Official End Time: 4:00 a.m.






Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Knowledge Is Power

Official Start Time: 2:50 a.m.
Date: 3/17/09
Official End Time: 3:00 a.m.


Sincerely, Hector Guzman

AP US History

Official Start Time: 1:30 a.m.
Date: 3/16/09
Official End Time: 2:00 a.m.

Its been a while since we last saw our AP US History teacher and I'm kinda worried in terms of what we're gonna do to get ready for the exam. For the most part of the year, our teacher has been absent due to a back injury he faced. I wouldn't really call it an injury, but rather a sprain that has kept him out of action for the majority of the year.

Not having him there has had its advantages: we mess around a lot. It sounds bad but I guess we aren't totally to blame. In my AP US History class, there are no test, no assignments, and literally nothing holding us back from running free and doing/not doing whatever we want. It might sound ideal for the hard working student who seeks the freedom to work at their own pace and work on project not typically assigned in the classroom, but for your everyday student it means anarchy. We basically go into the class and do whatever we want: nothing.

The exam is in May and it's a hard exam. The exam is nothing in comparison to our AP World History exam and many are destined to fail according to the status quo that experts seem to have just realized all of a sudden. The course is designed to be a college course with additional assignments and higher expectations, but really it is meant to be taught at the high school level with repetitive testing and homework assignments that make sure students are focused and ready for the exam ahead; we have none of that.

Our AP US History class revolves off the theory that as long as you read you're fine. In a perfect world that would make sense but being granted a passing grade doesn't really give students a reason to read and be responsible. What we have are students who take upon themselves to do/not do whatever they want. It sounds nice in theory but one can only imagine the chaos being unleashed.

Overall, we're pretty much screwed as we no way of applying the knowledge we've gained and no way of knowing how well we will do come test day. This class is really the college scenario and its up to us as students to prove that we are diligent and determined to pass. I hope I can prove that I'm ready.

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Superman vs Doomsday

Official Start Time: 9:30 p.m.
Date: 3/15/09
Official End Time: 10:00 p.m.






Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Action Comics # 1

Official Start Time: 10:45 p.m.
Date: 3/14/09
Official End Time: 11:00 p.m.

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Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Comic Books: A Lost Art

Official Start Time: 7:30 p.m.
Date: 3/13/09
Official End Time: 8:00 p.m.

Comic books, like any other kind of literature, have been a major factor in the way we see the world around us. Their influence can be translated into the creative trends they inspire amongst readers; everyone wants to live an imaginary life where they symbolize a figure of power and authority. Storytelling has since grown not only in the form of graphic novels but in short stories and other publications that continue to inspire writers, readers, and artist to think outside of the box. The art however is dying fast as digital media gives reader fewer reasons to read and imagine a world not limited to the 425 X 344 pixel screen that seems to make comic books obsolete in an age of instant information.

Graphic novels themselves have evolved overtime as age old stories like Superman and Batman continue to adapt with current technology and trends that resemble no comparison to the Sunday newspaper they were once distributed on. Now, everything is digital and you'll find it hard to find an authenticate comic book that still believes they can survive off the paper back editions they might give out every month. The situation is compelling as many wish to bring back a dying art. The art has been resurrected, but in the form of cartoons that stimulate the adolescent mind the same way CSPAN does.

Its fair to argue that digital media tells a more vibrant story but I believe that this story has too many walls holding it back. The production of these films, cartoons, or even animations translates a picture that finds it roots in written literature that's more imaginative. The text, although linear and limited to the pages it was printed on, allows readers to believe and imagine what life would be like in places like Metropolis and Gotham City where mad men run wild and our only lines of defense are in caped crusaders who resemble gods in the authority they present over people who depend on their protection. There are no moving pictures and there are no limits to the thoughts and expressions that a simple paper back comic such as The Batman can stimulate in the creative minds of adolescents who are often caught adrift in an age of instant information.

There are exceptions to the rules as documentaries, films, and other media based work that is able to stimulate the adolescent's mind the same way a new york time best seller might but there is still a clear distinction in the written foundation that makes these stories so powerful. For instance, a documentary like "Super Size Me!" does a great job of stimulating conversation and spreading awareness about the dangers of eating fast food and how future generations should respond to the obesity epidemics that is slowly killing off their healthy future. The written foundation and planning is what make a film like Super Size Me! so stimulating. Not every film is like this, and not every piece of literature is as stimulating as The Batman.

As a final summation, the art is dying fast. Digital media has definitely claimed its role in the development of children across the board and there is no question as to the negative or positive affects this form of media can have. Moderation is key when it comes to the development of adolescent minds and how digital media, graphic novels, or documentaries will affect the decisions our youth make today or in the future to come.

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

The Bees Are Disappearing

Official Start Time: 9:15 p.m.
Date: 3/12/09
Official End Time: 9:30 p.m.






Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Plant A Flower, Save A Bee

Official Start Time: 8:50 p.m.
Date: 3/11/09
Official End Time: 9:00 p.m.

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Plant A Flower, Save A Bee


Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Save the Bees!

Official Start Time: 7:30 p.m.
Date: 3/10/09
Official End Time: 8:00 p.m.

I recently saw a documentary on the world's hardest work, the bee, and how they're quickly disappearing. The bees are dropping all over the world and the phenomenon is reaching critical conditions as farmers and local planters must find alternative way to pollenate their plants without the help of such small yet crucial animals.

Its unbelievable the amount of worker bees are able to accomplish in one day. Most of the food we eat is thanks to bees and the amount of work they're able to accomplish that would take us hours. There was actually a piece about artificial pollination in China by a small group of farmers who were rapidly losing trees in their orchard. The process however took 12 people using a small duster made of feathers to reflect the delicateness of a bee attached to a large pole. What the farmers were able to accomplish in day was what a bee is able to accomplish in a few hours.

It shocking that such a small creature could have such a powerful impact. Bees are responsible for all the honey we as Americans enjoy and the pollination of not only our food but the food of every other animal. Many state that without the bee life would be better. No longer would they disturb our picnics and sting our children. However life without the bee cannot exist and it is up to us to SAVE THE BEES!!!

Simple things that we can is plant more flowers for bees to pollenate and eat from. You wouldn't believe the number of bees that go starving because of the environments in which they are forced to live. Other measures that must be taken are how local farmers use pesticides. Millions of bees pollinated their last daisy when a cloud of pesticide invade the atmosphere. Stricter guidelines needs to be put into play if we wish to not go hungry in the future to come. Overall it is our job to reduce the amount of food we eat by being considerate of the hard work farmers need to put in and the amount of pesticides they are often faced with dispersing when it comes to meeting their quota.

If do not act now, it is predicted that the bees will face extinction by the year 2012 and you can only imagine how screwed well be when the bees no longer sting us, our food, our environment. Save the bees today!

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Some Arguments Just Never Die

Official Start Time: 10:55 p.m.
Date: 3/9/09
Official End Time: 11:00 p.m.






I guess some arguments never die

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

The Way Arguments Should End

Official Start Time 11:15 p.m.
Date: 3/8/09
Official End Time: 11:30p.m.

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Fight, Fight To The Death I Say

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Act Your Age!

Official Start Time: 10:30 p.m.
Date: 3/7/09
Official End TIme: 11:00 p.m.

If only that phrase were true. Maybe I should back up before I explode all over the screen. So to give you a little background information, I'm a good guy. I'm prone to minding my own business and not crossing lines I know I shouldn't. However, time and time again there always seem to be those moments where you're trying to convince someone you're right and they act like a total child: an idiot, an imbecile, a real jerk because they have the horrible tendency of acting like an idiot when it comes to hearing the truth and admitting their wrong.

It all started in science one day after we were messing around after finishing a lab. We started messing around and out of no where the topic came up about the first successful slave rebellion and who that country had been supressed by.

**Note to self: Remember to write down the exact issue being discussed and each person's position. I did it to my brother once and the argument was over in less than 5 minutes with me achieving the results I wanted!! I will admit that it will take some practice and the fun out of proving people wrong, but the joy of rising victories is all the same.**

So I was trying to say that Haiti had the first successful slave rebellion under Napolean and that Mexico was also suppressed under Napoleon and that it wasn't until September 16, El Grito de La Liberta, that the Mexican people where able to achieve their independence from the Spanish rule. Apparently the person I was arguing with got confused with Napoleon and Mexico, lacking the ability to remember that Napoleon was a major factor in the Spanish Armenia and their control in Mexico. Additionally, how can you deny El Grito de La Liberta which includes Napoleon and an army of 500 soldiers who were defeated by a group Mexicans led by a priest who said enough is enough.

So from their the person really saw no better way of justifying their arguement then by insulting me and my intelligence. I was really rather frustrated at their ignorance, so I looked up the information in our history book from last year and found that page that literally described everything I said. Showing it to the person had no success as they continue to humiliate me rather than make their point by supplying facts that proved they were right. In the end, I knew I was right because I had a valid source to refer to.

**Arguments only thrive amongst people who think they are better than you. You'll never see a student argue with a teacher, but you'll definitely see a student argue with another student who they feel lacks to meet them at their level. These people usually think they're the best, yet quiver in the face of those who are a thousand times smarter than them. It disgust me!!**

In the end, there is no reason with these kind of people. The only way you will win is when you establish dominance and let them know that they don't stand a chance arguing with you and should shut their mouth. It sounds harsh, but being modest doesn't work now a days. You'll always run into the smart mouth punk who thinks he knows everything and yet is oblivious to his own flaws. That's why you tell them to act their age, and respect others: even if they're not an asshole like you.

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

So Frustrating, It Drives Me CRAZY!!!!!!!!

Official Start Time: 2:55 a.m.
Date: 3/6/09
Official End Time: 3:00 a.m.






We've all been there

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Under the Tsunami wave off Kanagawa

Official Start Time: 2:45 a.m.
Date: 3/5/09
Official End Time: 3:00 a.m.

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Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Psychiatry

Official Start Time: 2:30 a.m.
Date; 3/4/09
Official End Time: 3:00 a.m.

Psychiatry

Nearly one in every three people experiences psychiatric symptoms each year (Hicks, 2005). It is not permanent but it gives us a taste of what the mentally ill feel everyday. One common illness, depression, is the major cause of medical disability in the United States (Hicks, 2005). But, one asks, how is it that these illnesses exist yet they are still misunderstood? That is a question that is still being solved today because the human mind is a complex maze with twist and turns that are to be solved through psychiatry.

Psychiatry, by definition, is the branch of medicine dealing with the diagnosis and treatment of mental disorders. But, psychiatry is more than just diagnosing the ailment but cracking the mind down so one can see the origin of the problem. It then all raps up with a plan and the medication that can help return the subject’s mind to peace and tranquility.

One can tell when something is different. Either it would be the movement of an object or the sudden change in a person’s personality. All are key features in the diagnosis to say that he is depressed or that she is in denial.

“Though anger is an instinctive reaction, the extent to which you express anger depends much on your attitude,” (Hicks, pg9). Anger is one the basic human emotions to react when one feels threatened, harmed, obstructed, betrayed or disrespected (Hicks, 2005). The heartbeat accelerates, the mouth becomes dry, the pupils constrict, the breath shortens, the speech gets louder, and the body becomes tense. “When you are physically tense or are thinking unpleasant thoughts, you are much more likely to become angry than when you are physically relaxed and cheerful,” (Hicks, pg10).

There are people that believe that rules do not apply to them. They seek on getting through life the only way that benefits them. “They lie, cheat, steal, fight, rape, and intimidate others in order to satisfy their own desires and needs, without concern for their victims. One may engage in antisocial behavior for a number of reasons, and many of them have nothing to do with mental illness,” (Hicks, pg13). For example, one may steal food to feed their starving child because they have no money, or you may lie about your age to get into a bar where your favorite band is performing.

Appetite is one of the basic human drives that lets our bodies know when we need to eat and when we have eaten too much (Hicks, 2005). “But, in many mental illnesses, such as depression, the drive to eat can be disturbed, along with other natural functions,” (Hicks, pg27). “Psychiatrist refers to these changes in natural drives as neuro – vegetative signs of mental illness. In some mental illnesses known as eating disorders, appetite is not the problem so much as one controls over how much they eat,” (Hicks, pg28).

A compulsion is something you do against your wishes (Hicks, 2005). The act itself is not pleasurable or rewarding, because it can sometimes be irrational, inconvenient, or even harmful. “A compulsion is often confused with an impulse, which is an act one wants to engage in, even though there are negative consequences. For example, one may have a compulsion to bite their nails down to the skin of their fingertips, where as you have an impulsive desire to eat a hot fudge sundae despite being on a diet,” (Hicks, pg47).

A craving is more than a desire because one desires something even though it’s bad for you (Hicks, 2005). One will go to great lengths just to get what will satisfy their craving no matter what they may have to go through. You plan your day around it and lie at work, home, and to yourself to reassure yourself that you are in control and that you do not have a problem. “In clear moments, though, you can see that you are not the person you used to be. The craving has become a strange parasite that has taken over your body,” (Hicks, pg59).

Deceitfulness or lying is not usually a sign of mental illness. “We tell white lies in order to protect our privacy, to avoid complicated explanations, and to spare people’s feelings. Even if one agrees that lying is ethically wrong in principle, there are many situations when telling a lie might be justified (for example, if you were to give the wrong directions to an assassin, leading him away from his intended victim,)” (Hicks, pg72). Even though lying can be necessary to a minimum, it is also a significant feature in several mental illnesses (Hicks, 2005).

“Psychiatrist use the term denial to refer to a patient’s lack of insight into having an illness or psychological difficulty. Denial does not arise from a lack of psychological or medical knowledge, but from a failure to recognize, appreciate, or accept in oneself what is evident to others. Among those who suffer disabling symptoms of mental illness but who have not yet been diagnosed, more than ninety percent do not think of themselves as ill,” (Hicks, pg84). This last percentage probably reflects a widespread lack of understanding of mental illness in general, combined with personal denial (Hicks, 2005). The most dramatic examples of denial are seen in neurology rather than psychiatry through patients whom have had strokes (Hicks, 2005).

Everyone has experienced sadness at some time in their life. When one is under stress, or when something bad happens in our life, we get upset. One wishes that things could have turned out differently; we worry about the future or we may even cry or curse. Loved ones have trouble cheering us up, but it is a wound that must heal with time. “These are normal reactions, and one generally recovers from them soon enough, but they give us some insight into the more profound and extended feelings experienced by someone who has depression,” (Hicks, pg92).

“Mania is the term psychiatrist use to describe a state of elevated mood, rapid speech, grandiose thinking and agitation that can occur in several different illnesses, but is the hallmark of bipolar disorder, previously known as manic – depressive illness. Psychiatrist sometime use the dictionary definition of mania, which refers to any abnormal desire or compulsions,” (Hicks, pg195). The first symptom in mania is euphoria, meaning an elevated mood. In many ways mania is the opposite of depression because one feels unusually happy, hopeful, confident, and enthusiastic rather than sad, pessimistic, worthless, and withdrawn (Hicks, 2005). Other symptoms of mania include a rapid speech, becoming more physically hyperactive, sleeping problems, becoming grandiose which means believing that you are a unique and great person, having poor judgment, and being in denial (Hicks, 2005).

“In the past decade, suicide was the eighth or ninth leading cause of death in the United States, accounting thirty thousand deaths each year, Suicide is the third leading cause of death among teenagers and young adults,” (Hicks, pg341). Suicide, by definition, is the intentional ending of your own life (Hicks, 2005). “Suicide is not necessarily a sign of mental illness, but it almost always is,” (Hicks, pg 341). It is a choice one makes when they see no other options. “Mental illness may cause a suicidal person to feel hopeless, to neglect other’s options, and to view suicide as a desirable escape,” (Hicks, pg341).

As there are ailments there are treatments. Nowadays, modern science and the expansion of all other sorts of fields have brought light on to the darkness of the unknown. Where now we can see, touch, smell, feel, and taste what was thought to be untouchable.

For someone who suffers from frequent and disturbing angry feelings; he or she may benefit from anger management, a type of psychotherapy. “One will identify their tendency to perceive hostility when it is not intended, and to under – appreciate their own proneness to violence and anger,” (Hicks, pg12). They will learn the triggers to their anger so they can then learn how to avoid them than rather reacting automatically (Hicks, 2005). You’ll learn relaxation techniques to reduce tense and irritable feelings. And finally, you will learn coping strategies and try to decrease the amount of stress in your life (Hicks, 2005).

“The primary goal of parents, educators, therapist, and social scientist in approaching antisocial personality traits should be to prevent them from developing in the first place,” (Hicks, pg18). Once someone has an antisocial personality disorder it does not appear to be treatable through medication for a permanent effect (Hicks, 2005). No form of psychotherapy has been found to cure antisocial behavior. Those with an antisocial personality disorder have difficulty learning from their mistakes because they are more interested in the short – term gains rather than long – term consequences. “When therapy is helpful, it is usually because he or she has decided that it is in their interest to conform their behavior,” (Hicks, pg19).

If one suspects that they have an eating disorder, they should see a psychiatrist. “A psychiatrist can assess your nutritional needs, make sure that you are medically stable, and suggest a treatment program,” (Hicks, pg34). Treatment can be provided on an outpatient basis unless you are seriously under – weight or malnourished where you may need to be in a hospital for both physical and mental treatment until you are fully rehabilitated (Hicks, 2005). While hospitalized nurses and staff members will help you discard old poor habits and help you build better habits, such as eating a balanced diet.

Compulsions, although they are unwanted and habitual behaviors, they are not completely out of your control. “With enough determination one can resist their urges and refuse to engage in compulsive behaviors. The challenge one faces is that you may become increasingly anxious so long as you have the obsessive thoughts that drive your ritual,” (Hicks, pg52). Throughout your treatment you should keep in mind that your rituals are impulsive and illogical, no matter how compelling,” (Hicks, 2005).

If someone you care about has a drug or alcohol problem, you may be a helpful piece on their rode to recovery. “You may be the first person to realize that your loved one has an addiction,” (Hicks, pg70). It may be difficult to tell your loved one that you are concerned about their problem. He or she may deny that they have a problem, and will take steps to hide their addiction from you. You can be part in your loved ones recovery by being there for them the entire way.

“If someone you know has a tendency to lie, then they probably are not interested in a cure,” (Hicks, pg75). He or she may find lying to be a useful strategy for it helps them get out of trouble in sticky situations. They continue to lie because it motivates them, but only stop when it puts them in trouble (Hicks, 2005). They now realize that lying has instead of helped them has made them untrustworthy to those who are close. The only cure is to seek motivation to stop lying and look for help (Hicks, 2005).

“If one has a tendency to lose insight when they are sick, then they should try to develop strategies during periods of improvement to maintain their awareness and adherence to treatment. The denial that occurs during psychosis and mania is so profound that you should prepare for your loved ones to take over when you become ill,” (Hicks, pg88). Even if one recognizes that they have a mental illness, they may resent that they need medication. Unfortunately, it is common for people to stop or skip doses of their medication. In fact, studies have found that people with diabetes, high cholesterol, and hypertension cheat on their diet, skip doses, and sometimes stop taking their medication completely (Hicks, 2005).

The great news is that today depression is treatable. “Antidepressant medication is highly effective, and psychotherapy can help someone through a depressive episode, whether or not they chose to use medication,” (Hicks, pg100). Even if one has small symptoms, they may have a cumulative effect if they persist in the future (Hicks, 2005). One even may become severely hopeless and desperate without treatment. “Depression can usually be treated at home though hospitalization is safer if you are having suicidal thoughts,” (Hicks, pg100).

There are several ways to keep one healthy while being manic. “First, you must recognize that you have an illness and that you are prone to experience episodes of depression and mania in the future,” (Hicks, pg 201). As mentioned earlier, one should take steps to receive appropriate treatment so that you do not lose control while manic. This means taking one’s medication, avoiding drugs and alcohol, decreasing stress in your life, and enlisting the support of others (Hicks, 2005). Most importantly, one must keep taking their medication as prescribed.

“If one is having thoughts of harming themselves, they need to tell their family and psychiatrist immediately so that they can help keep you safe until you are feeling better,” (Hicks, 345). Although depression seems as if it will last forever, it is likely to improve with time and treatment (Hicks, 2005). After one recovers, you will look back and be glad that you didn’t kill yourself. It is important that when one feels that they are going to harm themselves to talk it over with someone.

In conclusion, psychiatry is a field of its own. “Though poorly understood by most people, mental illness clearly rivals any other area of medicine in its widespread and has a serious impact on people’s lives,” (Hicks, pg2). For you see, psychiatry is a light that shines over the shadows of the unknown and unveils a mystery that has only just begun.

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An old FISP project I had done when I was in 8th grade . . . so forgive me if the writing sucks and the structures makes no sense. FOCUS back then was what ISSP is now. Back then we would do random projects, get scold by random teachers, and never really accomplish much beyond the means of our creative capacities. The experience none the less was gratifying and has given me opportunities that students not in FOCUS or ISSP would have otherwise.

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

A Black American

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Date: 3/3/09
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Couldn't have said it better myself

Sincerely, Hector Guzman

Rolando Briseño, Bicultural Tablesetting

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Date: 3/2/09
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Rolando Briseño, Bicultural Tablesetting


Sincerely, Hector Guzman

What does it mean to be white?

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Date: 3/1/09
Official End Time: 2:00 a.m.

It was only a day or two ago that I asked myself what does it mean to be white? The skin color as you've probably guessed is my reference and why is it that when you behave and act your age that people consider you to be white?

Now don't get me wrong, I have no issue with being white, black, yellow or even purple. What I am concerned with is why I've always been called white? Why everyone I've ever known has slowly grown to either be white or black? The divide just drives me crazy for I know that color shouldn't be a factor in this equation and yet no matter how hard I try to redefine it, it comes back to haunt me, like a piece of life you can't live without.

So to give you some background information, I'm Dominican. My parents are from a little island in the Caribbean where people speak Spanish and basically live normal lives. I can't tell you more, because even my parents aren't what you would cast as your typical image of the everyday Dominican.

My parents are what you would call "white". They went to college, taught us to be proper, encouraged us to read, and basically acted as good parents in my mind, but white parents in the minds of all the people I knew. My environment has always been a one of poverty or at least part of the lower class by definition. Many of the people I know never went to college and their kids sadly so are heading down the same road. Many drink and live life in the now rather than for the future to come; not because they want to but because of circumstance they are forced to. It is the age old story of the ghetto and how people usually depicted as the intellectually inept are really those just trying to get out of a life they never thought they would live.

Being faced with such extremes, my parents sheltered me and my siblings from such a life. We always had food on the table and a bed to sleep on. We had books to keeps us company and stories to pass the time but we never had the world around us. We were sheltered from the rain and the wind that is the ghetto all because we feared that it would tear our house from its roots and plant us in an alter dimension where corruption ran free.

Growing up this way, away from the ghetto, made me what many classify as white. My intelligence was way higher than those of students raised in the ghetto and for that I was an object of envy. I enjoy school, I liked reading, and my vocabulary didn't exactly fit my age: I was basically a white kid trapped in the body of a Dominican child in the ghetto.

I appreciate my environment for without I wouldn't be who I am today. I do not however understand the criticism of being "white" in the ghetto. You would think color wouldn't play a role and yet it still does. Many students are still stigmatized by the color of their skin and resisitent to crossing the bridge that defines our cultural divide, and I say it's about time that we put old beliefs to death.

The history dates back to the Age of Imperialism and the white man's dream of conquering the world. He took the savages he founds and gave them names that we recognize on maps but our ancestors don't. Like gods, the white man brought with him many opportunities that we are blessed with but at the same time he opened man to a cruel world where he would be defined as the lower level of life: never equal to his brethren.

And who could blame the white man. While out on his journey to save the world he came across souls that needed direction: direction that could only be applied by the sword and through blood shed. Having claimed dominance over his people, the white man never got a taste of how it feels to be oppressed and there is unbelievable evidence that makes this statement true.

If you were to look at the world map, you could see the "white" part of the world during the Age of Imperialism being focused around Western Europe. Outside of that region came the Ottomans in Turkey, the Ummayyads and the Abbasids in the Middle East, the Indians in India, the Chinese in China, the Japanese in Japan, the Mesoamericans in Mesoamerica, and the Africans of Africa. All of these people have thrived and made amazing accomplishments that have pushed man forward only to be "civiilzed" by our white brothers.

We could go on all day about the pros and cons to life with our white brothers and how it has changed the face of the Earth and how really the oppressed and are only oppressed in the presence of their oppressor but the point I am trying to make is that this story dates back farther than you or I can remember.

The goal of "civilizing" such savages according to the white man was to create a better world full of order and structure. The world already had order and structure, it just had one to many people running it. So the white man was really just the project manager who took his position to the next level: he made one order and one structure whether we liked it or not. He was in charge and we were to obey to his rule whether we liked it or not.

It makes me sick looking at the Boer War in Africa, the Opium War in China, and how even those who were white skin tone like in Eastern Europe weren't technically white and probably to this day still aren't. With such a reputation, no one wants to be white. No one wants to be linked with being the spreader of disease and the object of hate by millions upon millions of people and yet it still continues. The definition has changed but many are labeled as white: for having manners, for acting smart, and for actually having a purpose in life . . . as if to say that colored people don't have a purpose.

Once you gain you're purpose, you become white. I've seen it happen over night and how once you start getting you life on track, you become white. You start thinking responsibly and you become aware of the obstacles that lay ahead; never imagining that with each step you've grown further and further away from your fellow man.

I for one do not believe that life should be this way. We shouldn't be labeled by the color of our skin or the heritage we've been graced with. We should embellish our minds and our purpose considering race, skin color, and environment as features that add-on to our persona rather than define our persona.

SIncerely, Hector Guzman
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