Jassica

Official Start Time: 10:30 p.m.
Date: 7/19/09
Official End Time: 11:00 p.m.

Over the last couple of days, I have had the pleasure to talk to Jassica as school is out and I finally have the chance to talk to her as much as I want or basically for as long as I can.

Well I guess I can’t really say that seeing as I always talk to her and basically for as long as I can (5 hours Skype calls say otherwise I guess)

However, with all this free time, I feel that wherever I am she follows me. I’m in my room, online, and she follows me. I’m at the office (we need to talk about that), online, and she follows me. I’m at my cousins house, online, and she follows me. Basically, the girl is all over me and sometimes I barely know what to do as just being with her seems just fine.

Its awkward to admit that, but I feel after almost 9 months in our relationship, we have evolved to the point where we don’t need stimulating conversation or games to pass the time. Simply hearing the other one’s voice/acknowledging their presence is enough.

Its kinda funny though how our situation seems to work and how even though so much time has passed, we are still loyal to each other. I mean, in her situation, I wouldn’t blame her for having doubts and fears. I many ways, I would understand the pressure, as a 19 year old girl, she faces and how in many ways I could be holding her back/myself back from the dating world and essentially college.

Letting go however seems like the hardest thing I could possibly do and something I fear might mean the end of our relationship. I’ve known this girl for only 9 months, but it feels like if I let her go, I would be making the biggest mistake in my life. There’s so many things about her that I love that I doubt I would ever be able to come by again if I threw myself out there.

College is definitely gonna be the next big step, but I’ll never really know until I try. I love chen qi yi and I would be crazy to not do everything I can to make our relationship work.

Sincerely, Hector Guzman
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